I still remember the run. I was running to catch it...very fast...even faster. The excitement to catch it made me forget the distance & direction. The mischievous wind soughing in my hair, the speed which light would fear... This was the passion. I kept running ups & lows trouncing successfully know not what number of huddles. The ecstacy seethed through each pore on my skin, the moment I saw myself nearing my catch. For a moment I felt blessed with Arjun's Eye. I kept ignoring my gasp which grew with the gallop of my feet. Arms stretched, greedy fist, heart's fandango, eyes wide open to imprint & captivate the moment's excitement for time immemorial...I run finally. Yes, only a grab away..... And....... O God!!!!! I turned with rage to see someone pulling me back. "Stop it. It's not yours. It was never yours. Let it go free". My senses freezed ever securing the moment's feel. The words echoed hard in me burrying my heart's cry deep within. I saw her calm & sinless; smiling or mocking at my foolishness??? She was my conscience. I saw myself holding me back. I never walked a step without her before. Now, how could I do this? I think she was right. It was never mine. But I was not ready to absorb it even if I accepted it. The momentary pleasure of having something which was never meant to be yours, sometimes makes human beings crave. I am a human being. Was I saved? Was it that I succumbed to fear...fear of losing? Or was it that I became a slave of my non-performance? I never questioned back at her. May be all she did that day was a blessing in disguise. I love her. Or did I love him???
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its very nice......................very real......i will say only......"very good"
ReplyDeleteReally good. It will raise a feeling to hear his/her conscience which will lead him/her to think of the inner happiness. Coz inner happiness lies with your goal or ur partner.
ReplyDeleteit`s really a very touchy one oliva,keep it up n i hope there is lot more 2 come from u very soon...have wonderful time ahead....
ReplyDeletenice post..lovely usage of words.
ReplyDeleteour conscience keeps us grounded
"It was my conscience. I saw myself holding me back. I never walked a step without her before"....do we always follow our conscience....may be yes or may be not...but the thing is we are doing what we want to and at the end of the day its us who is important and we are happy thinking that atleast we are trying to live..
ReplyDeletetoo good....i remembered all dose moments (gud n bad) where i had felt d same ...d dilemma in identifying conscience ....keep it up sweety....
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